yeah, something is wrong

I confirm that something is wrong with my laptop. Once in a while it will get so hot and will start to lag. I get so irritated when my laptop start to play her 'game' with me. I promised if I get a new laptop, there will be no more 'Compaq', because the internal hard disk and the speaker are too near to each other that's why my laptop will get super hot if I play songs.


Another irritating thing is this :


I don't know if it is the internet's fault or my stupid laptop's fault. This thing always popped out in the middle of my browsing. I have to click the 'try again' button for like more than 10 times then it will reconnect. Life is full of troubles.


Oh, Happy Merry Christmas all. I wasn't be able to blog during that time, cz something was going on. Hopefully we all will be a better person. live life to the fullest ;)

b.o.r.e.d

I'm bored to death!!
Yeah, getting bored of my holiday already. No longer enjoy. Bored of activities, bored of
watching dramas, bored of facebook, in short just bored of everything.


I want to go back school
eventho' it's another nightmares, but who cares, I just need activities to pass my days
11 JAN 2010 PLEASE COME FASTER!!

???

Oh My God, what's wrong with me? I am feeling so uneasy. I feel like there's something stuck inside of my lungs that makes me hard to breath. Feelings like want to cry, and the worst is I don't know what makes me feel like this..


I suddenly feel the world is so empty.. I feel like talking to someone, but at the same time I don't know what to talk, because I also don't know what is it inside me..how??


I tried to do something.. but everything I did just make me uncomfortable. Something is haunting me.. of course not a ghost.. haha. it's the feelings that haunt me.. I don't know how to describe myself now, I just feel uncomfortable since last night..

I saw HIM!

You can spot Jay rite?

Black jacket, gray jeans, and black shoes !

MC > Jay > Lin Ci Ling > Treasure Hunter's director

Well, I have nothing much to say besides sorry for the poor pictures..
I was standing at the 4th level of the mall, so it's kinda far!
reached there around 5.30pm, all the 3 level were full!! wondering since what time those people are waiting. lol. It was a good experience to be able to see a big star, Jay Chou!! Happy, unbelievable, amazing, sad, upset, all those feelings are in me now. I just feel that it wasn't a real thing that I could actually see him with my own eyes. He's the first famous person I've ever seen with my own eyes as a 'real' person, so this make me very happy ;)


Then what make me so upset..? I was standing far, I couldn't see him so clear, it feels like better dun see at all.. I actually dun really want to talk about it, cz it makes me feel more and more sad talking about it, I don't know why also, so don't ask me. xD
I will just take it as a sweet dream of mine, and I have to wake up from that dream.. as I must go to the real world again. I think the pictures explained pretty good on the situation there..


"If you don't like it, doesn't mean everyone has to follow you, you can appreciate what people like, not by criticizing them and think that your choice is the best. that's not how it supposed to work in human being. Maybe you don't mean anything of what you said, or maybe you think it's kidding, but did you ever think ur words can hurt people?"

Orchard Road

♥ The crowd of Orchard Road !!
This performance brought the most crowd amongst others :

Indonesian Groups performing :

Indochine! The environment makes me feel I am in western country!

He is singing my Fav song "Apologize"

Cute right?


Philippine's groups performance :

I just ♥ the crowd ! can scream as loud as you want, nobody can hear you

Going home, @MRT


Moment of 20.12.2009

Old folks visit

As some of you may know, today I went to old folks' home. and I can tell you that it's a short and a very meaningful moment for me. I wish I can go there again next time. It's a REAL happiness for me to be able to entertain them, talk to them and help them. Some of them are very pity, they can't even wake up from their bed anymore. Few of them are a little bit of mental problems, and half of them are using wheelchairs.


We had quite number of entertainments for them. Singing old songs, a little dance, we wear Christmas hats, full of Christmas decorations, ect. And I can see smile in most of the elders' face. I can't even have time to take any pictures of our events, so sorry. But hopefully I can get it from my friends.


So there's one uncle I talked to. He's in his 70++. He's a very normal uncle, and I can see when he was young he's a person of charisma. I talked to him pretty much, asking what is his hobbies, where had he been when he was young, how many grandchild he has, etc..etc.. and I actually almost in tears when I had to say goodbye to him. Wishing him a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, stay healthy and happy. This is my first time I feel so touched.. I pity him a lot, I actually wish I could stay longer to talk with him, but I can't. He told me, "you are very beautiful." That time I also almost in tears, no one had ever say that to me, but the uncle did. =) I really wish him full of happiness, and always stay healthy..


Another one was a grandma, I can't really talk to her, coz she's speaking cantonese, so all I can do is smile, and give her a little massage, ask her a little questions with my sucks mandarin. She's 90++ already, and when I touched her skins, it feels like going to fall off. Very thin and loose.. I can imagine if one day my skins will also become like that, and it's very pitiful.. or even scary to think of that.


Some others grannies/grandpas said they are so lonely.. and yeah, actually they are.. all they can do is only sleep on the bed, waiting day by day to pass by.. it's like they really don't have any hopes anymore. it's like they are just waiting for the 'time'. really, when you see people like that, all you want is just to accompany them, to keep them away from loneliness, to tell them that they are not alone!


I've been standing the whole day, the pains in my legs has reached the bones, but I am really happy, I learned a lot today. I learned how to make people with almost no hopes to be happy. I learned how to work in team. I met a lot of people, and the most important I learned how to socialize. Last but not least I found my REAL happiness. It's true that when you are helping peoples with your heart you will feel very happy, so blissful..;) I really wish there are still other chances to visit them..

*so sorry for long blog*

Party and Meeting

Snack time

Still snack time

Briefing time

Still briefing time

That's the food!!

Another set of food !!

It's Bingo game! I just need 69! to get the prize !! arhh!!
so saddd @_@

Yuan Yuan - China

Party is over !

It was a short gathering of international students, celebrating end of the year festive. It was pretty good, since this is my first time going to a gathering, I can say I am still looking forward for the next gathering, which is on 8th Feb, Chinese New Year. It's good to know many peoples from different countries. From China dominate the most! Second is Iran/Pakistan/Middle-east people. Third Indonesia fourth Vietnam, and Fifth Malaysia and German.


So after the party, foods, and games are over, I rushed to the meeting! I have to attend meeting regarding the visit of old folks house, since I am one of the team, 2 hours meeting and only allowed me to go home at 9.30pm. It's definitely a tiring day. But I enjoy it so much. I'm gonna be very very busy for the next 2 days!! But I just love the bz-ness. =)

Beautiful nightmare

Have u ever wanted to have something?
examples, for people who are getting married they want the proposal to be special, for someone who like other, he/she wants to be together with that person, for parents, they wish their kids give them something special in parents day, etc..etc..


Ya, I used to have one too. I have ever wanted something, but it is impossible to happen. So I try to let go that something.


Last night, I had a dream. I dream that something I want really happen to me. It felt so real..so sweet..so beautiful..Eventho' it felt so real, part of me just know that it was only a dream and it makes me scared..really scared.. I dare not to continue my dream because I know, the more I continue the dream, the more I can't let go the thing.
That dream will never come true as in reality it is "impossible". So I quickly wake up from my sleep. I kept myself awake for quite sometime because I scared if I directly sleep, I will have that dream again..Thanks God that dream not continue after my second sleep..


It was a sweet dream, but at the same time it was scary because, the higher you reach, the more painful when you fall down.. So I don't want to dream more and more.. I don't want the hurt, the pain and the tears.. Wanting something that will never happen is obviously not easy right?